I stood in front of the mirror the other day, carefully observing my reflection and also questioning how I have moved from being such an extrovert to what I have become now.
The change began last year when I started growing spiritually and it has now taken full form.
People who were once significant in my life are no longer part of my sacred circle. I have pushed them all out and life feels better. I bet they are all thinking now ” what a bloody nutter!” Lol!
I don’t actually blame them if they ever saw me that way because it’s a bizarre behaviour in a simplified perspective.
Growth is weird but vital.
Although this decluttering brought and still brings tremendous peace into my personal life, I was worried about losing these people, the negative reaction and consequently creating enmities.
People are not stupid, they always know when they are no longer wanted and that may hurt a lot, a little or not all.
Have I ever experienced this from other people? Yes of course!…I may have pushed a little to get back in but when I noticed the door of that relationship was tightly closed , I then walked away and tagged them weird…lol!
Now I understand that they were on a different journey of life which I wasn’t supposed to be a part of.
I only got to this point of understanding the situation because I am currently experiencing that shift and it has rocked my circle and connections. I was very worried about it initially and I would pray daily for friends and family members I have chosen to break away from. I wanted to prove to myself that I still loved them but would rather do it from a distance.
I dare to say that I have been blessed with a warm and friendly personality, which draws people to me but my circle has to be decluttered to allow my personal and spiritual growth.
Although It feels good and amazingly liberating, I also feel some sadness about loss of friendships and broken connections.
Fear not! I haven’t become a total loner yet. I cooked the other week with my friend Fiona and we had a great laugh.
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Have you ever experienced this before?
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Thank you x